Korean drama?

I wonder how and where the writers for korean dramas get their material.. Well, over the last couple of months I think I lived in one. The thing is, I didn't know the details about everything until last night. This is when I started seeing past events, and things that were said come to a clear understanding. It's odd how you can be so confused throughout the whole story, but when you find out the last twist, the whole story unravels and makes complete sense. I almost felt like a complete retard to have not seen what is so plain to see now.. I should have known, but now it's too late.

I think I've been effected by this more than I thought I would have. So many things were going through my head last night that I didn't get to sleep till past 4. If you know me, I'm the type of guy that will pass out before my head hits the pillow. To even stay up for 5 minutes past the time I intend to sleep is out the ordinary.

I'm developing this attitude that I'm trying to run with. In most cases, if I meet a period of trial, I tend to say eff it. I'll have an "I don't really care" snare on my face, and I'll feel exactly how I looked. However, this time around I'm channeling that stress into being a bit more productive. I've studied more in the last 2 days than I did in the month of June. Not only that, but I'm starting to change my view on how I treat people. For example, I wouldn't shy away from referring to girls as "bitches". You don't have to tell me that's messed up, cause I just told you the wrongness of it. Hopefully this sour patch feeling with stick around long enough to make an impact.

Anyways, I'm sure none of this made any sense.. but it's something that's obviously been taking a toll on me..