A lot of nothing

It's sad to see all the people growing up around me. Friends and relatives are all passing many chapters in their lives. It's just another way to show me that I'm aging too.. Internships, grad schools, careers, marriage. Moments like these remind me of the regret I have for not going to college and enjoying things that my friends were doing. Like meeting new people and being young and careless. I know I've had my share of being stupid, and trust me, I know I've had my share of recklessness too. But I didn't get to do it with the friends I grew up with. Or on a simpler scale, I wish I could've met up with people to study at the SLC, or grab a quick lunch with a friend in passing. I dunno.. I just wish I could've made better choices up to this point in my life. I really hope that my bad choices haven't become bad habits in my life.

Starting to explore socially unacceptable things at a young age knotted some of my habits. Although I feel like I've straightened a lot of them out, there are some things I still wanna change. Like going out to clubs and bars. I was on a good pace of fixing this as well, but as I was released from watch by higher authorities, it put my life back into frenzy on the weekends. I guess it still shows lack of character and will if I can't change something so simple.

Sometimes I think that starting to work and holding so many responsibilities at young age has forced me to mature in certain aspects in my life, like work ethics. Being in charge of a business's finance, talking to and pleasing dentists, and just watching and making sure production is moving along as it should. It's one of the things I'm actually proud of. But on another note, I still feel so immature in other areas of my life. IE: my sense of humor.. but a part of me doesn't wanna lose it, cause that means I really am getting older.. and who wants that?!

Well, as sad as it is to say, I'm still studying for my license. This is taking much longer than I anticipated. The break between my course exam and my state exam has been so long. Since i had to wait for approval by the commission, I slacked in studying. In return, I forgot a big chunk of stuff. I even purchased this license tutor online to help me study. It's a package of 10-15 practice exams. If I get more than an 80% on all of the practice exams, they guarantee a passing grade or my money back. I guess we'll put their confidence to the test!

Wish me luck, I plan on taking my test fairly soon! If I don't, the boss lady just might kick my ass..